Why do I keep trying to find myself on Pinterest? I feel like I don't know what to do with myself and I keep hoping I'll come across something that will get me going in one direction or the other. I have a feeling it really has to do with the fact that I am in a new place in my life. I have two babies who are turning into boys before my very eyes. I stay home with them rather than work. I feel lost. I feel like I don't know how to structure my day.
All of my life I've been surrounded by structure. My mom had an orderly house. School told me what to do with my time. Work told me when to be there and when to leave and exactly what was expected of me in the time that I was there.
Now, I'm freer than I want to be. All loosey goosey. I love going from point A to point Z and hitting every letter in between in order. I'm just that way. I dislike disorder. I dislike not having a place for things. Flying by the seat of my pants does not work for me.
I really feel like I need to tell myself that "on Monday..." and "on Tuesday...". Set aside a specific day to do a specific thing. I know the old saying of Laundry on Monday but I don't know how they did it. I have to do laundry at least every other day to make sure we stay in clean clothing. Maybe they just re-wore clothing until the end of the week.
I wish I didn't feel so addle-pated.