Tuesday, May 28, 2013


I haven't been blogging for a while. I wasn't sure why not other than that I felt it awkward to type out a post on a tablet rather than a computer with a keyboard. Also, I wasn't fond of the Blogger app I had to use. But I knew it was more than that, so I didn't try to post as I let things simmer in the back of my mind. 

She's right and so is her husband. Blogging is dangerous in it's own way. It is a tool and can be used to harm or heal just like any other tool. I forget this in moments of passion when I want to vent my emotions on paper. With paper journaling I tend to write it all out and a month or a few years later I rip out all the pages and destroy them, not wanting others to read those inner most feelings. Many people write in journals with the hope that one day someone will read those words. I don't know that I've ever felt that way. I want to hide my journals and never let anyone read them. 

One may wonder why I journal at all if I don't want it to be read. I guess, perhaps, that I use it as a way to formalize my thoughts and get out whatever is bothering me. I don't want to be judged for those thought, I just want them out of my head. Writing is the easiest way. Sometimes those thoughts lack charity or kindness. Often those words are judgmental. 

I'll try to blog with charity, thoughtfulness, kindness and clarity. It will be hard, but I hope others will do the same. 

Monday, May 20, 2013

The Month of May

Making my Mother's Day card
Life is so busy. I can't believe it's almost summer. Last weekend we went to a double birthday party and baptism (one of the birthday boys was our little guy). It was fun to see all the children play and romp and throw sand everywhere. My sister-in-law had a bounce house in her living room and our toddler loved it in there. He was able to hold his own against all the other kids in there and he is one of the youngest. My boys seem to be tough little guys.

Brushing his teeth

This coming weekend we have nothing planned, thank-goodness. I have a lot of work to do before June because come June 1st we are having a family birthday party for our baby who will be one. Yes, I just said that we went to a birthday party for him last weekend but that was with my husband's side of the family. This one will be mostly my side of the family. That's what happens when your families live 100 miles apart.

Working on his Cruising
The second weekend of June will be me taking my brother, his wife and children and some of my friends to the Valhalla Renaissance Faire in South Shore Lake Tahoe, Camp Richardson to be exact. When I was fresh out of college I got involved in the local Renaissance faire acting guilds and I had so much fun. About a year before I met my husband I stopped going in an effort to re prioritize my life. While I don't miss the politics of acting groups I do miss the lovely costumes. And because I'm crazy, I'm making costumes for my sister-in-law and my niece who want to dress up for faire. I've got one chemise finished, a second one half way done, 2 pair of bloomers, 4 skirts to make, and 2 bodices. The hardest part is cutting everything out. Sewing is easy.

I have a feeling I'll be sewing more and more the closer I get. I seem to be procrastinating right now.

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Food troubles

Food has been a challenge lately. I've been dealing with major food cravings that I haven't been sure how to handle. As a consequence, I've been slowly eliminating foods, one by one, as I madly indulged in whatever was left.

Last year for Lent I gave up grains. I didn't eat wheat, corn, rice, oats, etc. I was shocked by the results so much so that I decided to keep it out of my diet, but as the year waned on I allowed some of them to creep back in. Corn was a major downfall right around Halloween. I started eating candy and tacos and slid right into the holidays with eating gluten free foods made from a box (note that gluten free products are usually made with rice).

This Lent I tried to clean the grain up again but mainly focus on sugar not being in my diet. I did great. When it's Lent, I find this superhuman power of giving something up. What's weird is that when it's not Lent, I'm not able to do so. It is so frustrating.

When Lent ended and the Easter season began, I stayed off the sugar for about a week more before giving up and bringing it back. I failed here.

My sinuses have been haywire and I've been snoring. Two weeks ago I decided to cut out all wheat, corn and rice again. I've been scanning labels to see what was left. Of course I was talking about candy. Pretty much all that was left was Hershey's chocolate bars or Kisses, Reese's Peanut Butter cups, Skor or Heath Bars. That seemed to be it.

I still have been having issues. I've been contemplating the whole beans and legumes thing. Beans would include chocolate and peanuts. I've got to take them out of my diet.

I wish my head didn't hurt from a headache. No more sugar. Sugar, which is mostly made from sugar beets which are a GMO. And no more legumes. Even the yummy kind like chocolate and peanuts.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Happy May Day

It's almost over but today is May Day or Mary's Day. I wish we had done a May crowning for Mary but I forgot about it until just now. I really need to be more proactive with doing faith filled activities with our boys.