How do I express myself properly? I'm tired but I'm full of energy. I feel like I run a race every waking moment and even when asleep. My dreams are full and vivid, yet I barely remember what they were about. My back is sore and my joints achy. Mystery bruises abound and little people poking them with questions. I live in the physicality of the moment. New babies are work. Work to learn their qwirks. Work to bring them into harmony with the family and bring the family in line with the needs of the baby. So much to do, no time to do anything but live in the moment. This work I do for God.